Goals are the main topic for many of the blogs I follow. Everyone’s got such great plans for 2012 and I wanted to add my own to the mix, but . . . I didn’t have any. Sadness. Rather than not blog, I decided to figure out why that was.
I thought about what I tried to accomplish last year; writing something I could publish. For a lot of reasons that didn’t happen and that was okay because I ended up with renewed and more focused drive toward my goal.
Part of the goal, because I want to publish on my own, is having a social media presence. I went after that too, with gusto, using all the lessons I learned, but somewhere along the way I started pulling back. By the time I got The Second Job, I was practically non-existent. No blogging, no tweeting and even less facebooking than usual.
Well, lately my twitter stream reads like a big ad where something awesome is always happening/being sold on a blog/facebook/amazon. Between that and the clusters of mentions/shout outs, the actual conversations are rare. This could be a by product of following over a thousand people, but facebook isn’t much different and I’ve got slightly more than a hundred and fifty friends.
Besides that, every time I signed on, I felt like I had an assignment to say interesting things, talk with other people and promote myself and others. Just the thought of that made me not want to sign on. Kind of sucked the fun out of being social.
And blogging became a chore at times, not because I disliked writing it, but because I’d have a topic in mind and think, “No, that’s not right for my target audience. No one will want to hear about this.” I still liked what I was writing about, but it wasn’t always my first choice.
I backed off and The Second Job came along which totally cancelled out the majority of my free time and the possibility of jumping back into the virtual world like before. So, what have I been doing with my limited free time? Watching Everwood. Lots and lots of Everwood.
I got the final season as a Christmas gift to add to my collection which prompted a series marathon. I won’t go into the awesome of Everwood (aside from saying you all MUST watch it) because it’s not relevant to this post, but a particular scene jumped out at me.
One of the teens, Ephram Brown, is a piano prodigy trying to get an audition to Julliard and he’s talking about what it’s like to play with his piano teacher. Amidst the endless hours of practice and preparation he’s doing for the audition, it’s the one time all of that goes away. It’s just about piano. Playing the notes, getting into the music for no other reason than it feels good.
Hey, wait a minute. Maybe I do have a goal.
It’s not specific, but I think it still counts. I want to bring the feely goodness back into my writing/social media time. That’s what will keep me going. Not sure how I’ll do it, but it’s a start.