I haven’t been at this self-publishing thing for very long. I started looking into it back in July or August and have been putting much more effort into building my platform since October. Mostly I’m on twitter, but now I’ve got the blog here and the ParaYourNormal one I do with Carolyn McCray. I’m also working on some other stuff to further my networking.
Most of the time it’s fun because I’m learning the ins and outs of social media. Plus, I’ve made some friends through twitter that don’t think it’s “cute” that I want to write professionally.
But this week my brain was on information overload and I hated everything I was doing. And then I got annoyed with myself for complaining. I’m not nearly as busy as other authors out there.
I’m not as busy as other authors? The problem reveals itself.
I’m not everyone else.
Yes I know, a lot of build up for that. I know I’m not rocking anyone’s world with that revelation. I also know I’m not the first person to come to this conclusion, but I think it’s a place that everyone finds themselves at some point.
In my case, I felt prepared enough to get on the road to self-publishing. I knew I was in for some hard work, but when the enormity of it hit and I saw what other authors were getting done with more on their plates, I lost it. Hence the hating of everything because my writing suffered the most. You know, the whole reason I’m building a platform.
So I’ve set out to reorganize. I can do this, I have no doubt of that. Enough people have gotten to places I want to be on their own steam, so I know I’ll get there too. ROW80 will help out some and I’m going to start writing down what I have to do. Again, I know this 2+2 stuff, but you’re talking to someone who’s spent his whole life organizing in his head and doing fine with that. No more.
Will this be the last time I feel this way? Probably not. Someone will always be doing better than me and I’ll be inspired to raise the bar for myself. I think that’s a healthy way to grow as a professional no matter what you’re doing. Never think you’ve learned it all. There’s nothing wrong with aspiring to be like someone successful. It’s unhealthy if you’re trying to be that person. I can only be me and the best part about that is no one can do it quite like I can.